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8:50 a.m. - 2007-08-09 Somehow the whole thing is more of a control issue rather than a weight thing. I feel like if I can be disciplined enough to deny myself food, I have some control over my life. Does that sound crazy? Exercise has become that way as well. 90 minutes a day, every day, strength training and aerobics in the morning and leg strength in the evening. I feel really guilty if I skip a session. I'm beginning to sound like a basket case now. For most of my life I've had very little control over what happened. It's not that I didn't have choices, I just always felt like it was my duty to defer to everyone else in the world instead of standing up and saying what I wanted. Many times it was easier to let someone else make decisions instead of taking a risk of making my own. Funny thing is as the polliwogs came along I made sure that they could speak their minds. I've taught them to not be afraid to walk to their own beat and voice their opinions. Now that I've taken a few solo steps I've found that speaking my mind can be a little scary. Exhilarating but scary. Ed and I have been riding our bicycles this week; 10 miles on Monday then 16 miles in 95 degree heat last night. Hopefully we can put in another 15 or so tonight then there are 2, 25-30 mile rides this weekend. Ed is getting used to the spandex pants and I sort of enjoy watching him from behind. He's got nice legs. We are half way to our goal for the American Lung Association fund raiser ride in September. A huge thank you to everyone who has donated so far and here is a link to their diaries: Then, last, but not least, my fund-raising page to any who would like to help the cause of fightling lung disease by donatnig to The American Lung Association. Ed and I will be bicycling 125 miles across the Kentucky Bluegrass Region on September 15th for the cause. Of course, it's just a huge bonus that we get to eat dinner and spend the night in historic Shakertown. Shakertown See ya!
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